“I've been thinking a lot about the term "calculated vulnerability". I've seen a lot of my peers write after the resolution of a something hard (overcoming an illness, shutting down a startup, IVF etc) after a happy ending, neatly packaging their vulnerability in a bow. But what if that happy ending doesn't come? Do you just stay in a purgatory? Do you just stay in silence? I've been wondering about what my "resolution" will be so I can start publishing again. This self-imposed hiatus is basically me waiting for a satisfactory resolution in order to start writing again.”