Dropbox mirror: https://www.dropbox.com/s/5aw8dd4v685skns/PJH%20%E2%80%94%C2%A0What%20does%20it%20mean%20to%20be%20behind%3F.pdf?dl=0 If you always feel behind, and never ahead or (better yet) neutral, then that sure is suspicious. Your behind beliefs might not be accurate, and anyways — who can feel motivated to run a race they’ve already lost?

I agree with him: [envy] will eat you alive if you keep it inside. I think one thing you can do is spit it out, cut it out, or get it out by whatever means available — write it down or draw it out on paper — and take a hard look at it so it might actually teach you something.

I considered that for a minute, then tentatively asked, “Which wolf will win?” Sparks danced towards the stars as the old man stared into the glare of the flames and replied, “Whichever one you feed.” I’ve been feeding the wrong wolf. Without a clear intention to feed the right wolf, I’ve been letting envy and greed and these negative emotions fester.

I’d never considered that adaptation was a serious option, until we started talking about it like it was a tangible problem and not a nebulous threat. Trying to find a pathway towards the source of pain is a lot more empowering than pouring your energy into being bitter over someone else’s success.