The Jaguar House, in Shadow - Aliette de Bodard
The mind wanders, when one takes teonanácatl. If she allowed herself to think, she’d smell bleach, mingling with the faint, rank smell of blood; she’d see the grooves of the cell, smeared with what might be blood or faeces. She’d remember–the pain insinuating itself into the marrow of her bones, until it, too, becomes a…